When I posted this FB status, everyone was so concerned and wondered what had happened to me. Let me just say that my person is fine, I’m not hurt or anything and my family members are fine too. But emotionally, I am rather crushed and well, emotional. I blogged recently about putting away my machines for awhile until I got both feet planted on the ground what with the new bub and all but it’s easier said than done.
While having them on my dining table sort of gave me hope that I could cope with sewing and the new bub, deep down I knew that I couldn’t and that hope slowly turned into misery because I knew that in reality, I wouldn’t be sewing for a long time. Not until Brandon is bigger and the girls more independant. Having them on the table where I could see them in plain sight was like really rubbing it in for me so I finally took the plunge and packed them away so that I could no longer look at them.
To those who think nothing of sewing, this may sound crazy but it was a rather emotional moment for me because I really love sewing and I guess you could say that its like asking a PS addict to pack up their consul indefinitely. How would that make you feel? It was painful but it had to be done – I needed to prioritize and family comes first. Hence this drastic decision. I know that the happiest person and the one who is benefiting from my misery is Ted coz he’s been wanting to see me pack up my babies since as long as I can remember. He grinned from ear to ear when he saw how clear our dining table is. So at least one of us is happy.
I’m slowly getting used to this empty table which in a way is a good thing because honestly, with both machines on the table, there wasn’t much room for anything else so it’s a blessing in disguise. On a happier note, despite putting away my machines, I am not totally craft-less. My new passion is knitting although I haven’t really been knitting much since I finished that gumnut hat. In fact, my easy cap has taken a hiatus as well coz I ran out of wool! LOL
But I have plans….we will be going to Spotlight after Brandon’s baptism so I plan on stocking up some major wool so that I don’t have to worry about going to Spotlight again coz Lord know how hard it is to get Ted to take me there! These are times I wished I have my drivers license. >.< Man, I really need to shape up and get it over and done with….I really do!!!!